What a fun first Halloween for me. There were creeps, goblins, and blood thirsty bitches everywhere but there were also people in costumes too. I’m totally joking when I say creeps and goblins because I admit I’m a weirdo creepy goblin that loves diversity, those inflicted with adversities, and people who just don’t fit in anywhere else. It’s always been my mother tuckin jam…. WAAAY before I arrived here in the land of dick milk and honey(s)/hunny.
Little did I know that Halloween was celebrated over this last weekend, and it just happened to be the same weekend I decided I needed to buy a new TV. My choices were limited and I wanted to buy myself something I needed; cause mine recently died. I chose the TV. I did however also choose a $5 bag of edibles over going out. They were delicious, really help with back pain and I always have fun if I’m home safe with my puppies and an edible. (Who knew $5 could be so much fun? Not me, but I do now.)
I can hear some of you now, “Ew, Lee, why would you choose a TV over going out?”
Well bitch, I’m glad you asked cause I was about to tell you any hoe! I mean anyhow!
With the varied costs to get in places, me just starting my own baby business and being on a tightly tucked budget, I didn’t have room to fuck up. In my mind it costs money to get turn’d up/fucked up/fuckered/or fucked. I didn’t have the dollars to spring for a ride home should I get fuckered and replace my TV; and/or get the cute office supplies I needed. I didn’t have enough to pay an entrance fee of $20+ AND then drinks AND then make a bad decision to drink too much, leave my car behind AND then go back for the next day. I’d love to prioritize dick (chonchon) but it’s just not in my budget at this time (I’m hoping it will be soon). AND my fucking washer is going out too! When am I ever going to get to prioritize some good dick? (Dearest Lord, let it be soon.)
My decisions, specifically this weekend and for the upcoming Pride weekend are simple. I’m not going anywhere I think for the rest of my gay AF life. I love it here. I chose the TV and I need to choose a new washer. I need the TV longer term than anyone that I may meet for a short term need. If I really need some dick I’ll fuck one of your husbands.
Yes, I put dick on the back burner when things go sideways. I think it comes from a place of being on my own and most of the time relying on myself. I’m just coming out of survival mode now- where dick was nonexistent. And some of you other bitches can be hungry and prioritize dick over food but I want the food. I want my electric bill paid, my mortgage paid, my office rental paid… well you get the point… before I invest my money in dick my own basic needs need to be met.
What I hope that always means for me is, I don’t want to go out and get trashed, drink way too much and not have enough money to call myself an Uber to get home. I hope that I never have to choose between my safety and yours and some dick. Because let’s face it, many of you terrible drivers choose wrong. Just leave your cars and walk you drunk or high hoes. I refuse to walk mostly because I still have no sense of direction here (it’s coming to me though). So what I’m trying to say and just took the long way to say it is….if you are getting trashed and have enough $ for a Lyft/Uber then get one or walk. My life and everyone else’s that lives or visits here isn’t worth your fucked up fun night for some good dick.
With that said… that was a good cockway (segue) into a question I have for all youz bitches…. If I’m busy fucking all of your husbands because I’m the pass or one of the many permission slips (tis the Palm Springs way), when am I ever going to have time to find a husband of my own? Yea, I’d like one of my own that I can get tired of having sex with and tell him to have sex with you!
Look at her bangs….Speaking of bangs… BAAAANGS… I saw a cute doctor tonight at a party. He was the perfect amount of hot and quiet that made my nipps and such perk right up. The perfect amount of, “I’ll let someone else talk… cause I’m a boss ass bitch and everyone else listens to me all the time anyway.” No, he didn’t say that I could just tell by the big bulging vein in his yummy white man arm. Well doctor, I’d like my temperature taken with your big hot thermometer, please. I’ve got the fever, and it isn’t for Pringles. But I do like Pringles too. In fact, it is better and sexier if you bring Pringles.
Gosh, yes that’s a Utah white people word and I say it- I was raised there; what do you expect? Gosh, I get distracted. What I was trying to say is I wish all of you Happy Homos and blood thirsty bitches a Happy Halloween. As we go into this next weekend and many people from out of their boring states will come to fun delicious and sexy California, I hope you are safe and come with good intentions. Yes, I too would rather be here than anywhere else at this moment in time.
With all the crazy religious groups fighting and killing each other to prove who is more loving and appreciative of God’s greatest commandment to love above all else… it gets scary to go out. I understand anxiety. I have it. It is me and so many other people out there in our community. It comes from so many different places but it can be managed. What that means is it doesn’t have to control you… you can control it.
One thing that Prime Minister Netanyahu touched on, “Never again” and never again is right now.
Netanyahu told Israelis: “We have unanimously approved the widening of the ground invasion … Our objective is singular: to defeat the murderous enemy. We declared ‘never again’, and we reiterate: ‘never again, now’.”
How do we or anyone else tell a group of people, the Jewish people, that they don’t have the right to respond to hate as they deem fit? They were slaughtered by Hitler and many people vowed, “never again.” And now that loss of life is being challenged in the pages of history with the lie that it didn’t happen at all. I’m not condoning violence. I just understand the reasons why someone would respond that way. You can get pushed around so much that you have no more wiggle room to move in peace and love. You have no places left to hide and no one left to protect you. What would you do?
Yes… that’s a real question because as queers we face this reality all the time. No… I’m not saying going out and hurt people. What I’m saying is I hope that you find the bravery to respond in an emergency that saves lives. Yes, I want you to respond to save your life, the lives of your community members, children, allies, and innocent people if you have to. America doesn’t feel so safe right now, but then again the world doesn’t either. (And we are entering into an election season and you know how crazy and murderous republican white people can get if they don’t win.)
Should you ever find yourself in a place that you know you are going to die but you could save the innocent lives of many- save those lives or just one. Get your high heel and stab a bitch. Get a chair, a bottle, an ashtray and fuck a bitch up to the point that they drop their weapon of mass elimination if you have to. Then hold them down or stop them to the point you are certain they are not going to hurt anyone else… count their labored breaths if you have to… until they are no more.
This isn’t a call to action… it is a call for defense and to pay attention to your surroundings. Defend your queer community if you must. Not that any of us want to…. But if you have to.. don’t hesitate. I worked for a law enforcement agency for a few minutes back in Utah. The social workers there were little gross rude bitches (just like many people in the world). The take away from my short time there was don’t hesitate. Hesitation gets your brothers and sisters killed. Don’t make rash decisions… you know if someone is trying to kill you and your queer community. Don’t make that kind of decision lightly… you’ll know if you have to act. Then ACT! Or RUN! (No this is not advice to hurt people that don’t deserve it. If someone has a gun that is going to kill people in your community in that moment- act!) And if you see people that don’t appear like they belong (like trumpers with red hats or people with swastikas at the pride parade then call the police before they even have the chance to get to the point of hurting innocent people. If you can prevent something than by golly mother fuckin gee I hope you do. Make the call to the PoPo. I hope none of these things ever happen to you or me or anyone else, but just in case we have to talk about it.
Remember if they are there to hurt us and are carrying guns… they are there to kills us. ANY MEANS necessary in the MEANEST of TIMES. A boot, glasses from the bar, a bar stool, a table, a belt, a belt buckle, a leather steel toed boot, and I mean any means necessary to save your life and the lives of our community members. Don’t let them take 200 + more innocent people and don’t let there be another Pulse. We’ve lost enough people in our queer existence… and that’s just to suicide. Look the world tends to damage our spirits (sometimes any chance it gets) and we turn to comfort in the damndest of places; really where there’s none. Sometimes it’s the words of our parents or the community at large that inflict our pain. It needs to stop and sometimes we have to fight for love or to love. Don’t let some crazed individual come into your house, your bar, your community and take us out without a fight.
You deserve… I deserve… we deserve to live in a world where we are safe to be loved and to love who we want, how we want and when want. With all that said… I wish all of you a very happy and safe Pride. It’s nice that we have ours (yes, I’m a Californian now) later in the year because of the hot af summers.
Fight for love if you have to.
Wishing You All A Safe & Happy Pride,
The Happy Gay Pride Filled Homo
PS Its been one week and I’ve been off the Kim Kardashian titty. I’m surviving but I was tempted to watch this last week’s episode. I refrained though! Traitor trump got us into this crazy mess and it’s sad that we even have to have “be careful talks” like this. He gave permission for their hate to come out and it’s out in full display. It has no place in our modern day peaceful society. Ivanka trump is a hard no for any Kim K all the way support from me (at this moment in time).
PSS To my Jewish friends should you ever find yourself needing refuge or a safe place to hide… let it be my home and my gun that protects you. I’ll hide and protect you as much as this world makes me.
PSSS So I made a post about me being excited to buy a new business card holder in my office. I said that we have a talented queer community here and I mean it. I never said that all the cards in the wall holder are from clients and even if they were…. So what? Anyone, even a therapist that says that they don’t’ struggle from time to time with mental health issues is a damn liar. It’s part of being human and I hope we change the way we think about it. Have you never struggled with depression, anxiety, grief or loss, loneliness, etc…? Don’t lie bitch.
PSSSS I’ve had doctors, therapists, nurses, teachers, bosses, and secretaries all in my office. Anyone that is not taking action to improve their mental health should be someone you should worry about. Not someone at an outpatient (not IOP level) clinic should scare you.
PSx5 When I arrived here in PS it was a therapist that was my bully, a psychologist that ignored the bullying (then became the bully), an administrative nurse (that became the bully) that condoned it and another therapist that took months to speak up and out about the abuse and harassment (and it was about damn time). Then a HR rep that also became a bully (in a sense). Just an FYI, HR does not have employees best interest in mind. They are there to protect the company and the administration. Keep that feather in your cap if you’re not in admin and want to complain to HR. Oh, and document the fuck out of everything. Keep records of ER’THING!
PSx6 When I worked for the PoPo it was the Licensed Clinical Social Workers (and not licensed at all but practicing) Social Workers that were the mean fuckers in the police force- not the cops. The cops I adored. (Except the really hot one would make negative comments about BLM and trans people all the time. He was clearly a bigot and didn’t like trans people. Yes, he was also a trumper- ew.) I would have fought tooth and nail for my brothers and sisters in uniform given the chance. You mean cowards didn’t give me the chance… your loss. I’m sure you are just as gross and rude today as you were then…even you Australia. Ew.. and maybe take a jog or marry for love and not because you were about to get deported back to Australia. (I often wondered if some of them had any previous social work experience at all… the kind where you actually give a shit about other people. You should have heard the shit they would say about their clients or people they worked FOR!) Don’t misinterpret what I’m saying beeoches. I love law enforcement… I love da Popo. Here more than anywhere else I’ve felt they are on our side.
PSX7 I deleted my last post about Rhonda Rae (SuGa SugA) because it wasn’t my place to say it yet… but I do believe it AND I’ll repost it when he dies. He needs to live his best life right now and refuses to do so. Tonight, we talked about it and he said he was existing and not living… well bitch- live your best fucking life. YOU CAN! More than so many of us will ever have the opportunity to do so. No I’m not being insensitive and talking about his death. The bitch is 80 years old and at the end of her life cycle. We all die… we are all going to die. My old pastor would say, “You know the mortality rate is still at 100%.” Again, we all die but not all of us get the chance to truly live. Are you truly living your best life? I’m working on it and its way better than being in Utah- that’s for damn true.
PSX8 I realize I’m good at boundaries. 😊 Always have been able to say, “Don’t do that!” or “Hey, why does everyone else get that treatment and I don’t?” Boundaries are good. And you don’t or shouldn’t have to put up with mean people. We also should be a little kinder to each other and ourselves. My struggle is with the, “Yes, sir I want that.” Or “More of that please.” I’m working on it though.
PSx9 this has not been proofread and may be a little controversial. But, I’m not a liar and care about your safety and mine. Take care of yourselves and each other my cock sucking soldiers.
PSx10 Got a little too real for a post that I simply wanted to say Happy Halloween and have a safe and Happy Pride.
PSX11 I had a funny faced pic originally as the intro but then remembered so many of you homos are so judgy and serious that you wouldn’t find it funny. Laugh a little… let loose a little… and fuck up a bitch terrorist a little if you have to a little or ALOT. My motto has been…. “Well bitch if I gotta die then you gotta go too.”
PSX12 Everyone has struggles. That doesn’t mean that you get to put your yuck on other people. I can say with certainty, I’d rather break bread with any of my clients (past and present), any trans person, any of the homeless youth we fed over the years (we meaning people in Utah and myself), BLM supporters, most drag queens, accepting and loving Jewish people, accepting and loving Muslim people, or anyone else acting out of love and wanting the right to exist than with some of the hateful social workers I’ve encountered in my career. It wasn’t always like that. I always start with kindness and then they take it to the gutter from there. Jokes on them …. I love the gutter. I know nothing else.
PSX13 Why do I bring up the struggles of our Jewish brothers and sisters? Well bitch, I’m glad you asked cause that means you care and I was about to tell you anyhow! Their fight is your fight too. Whether you want it to be or not. The hate that calls for their annihilation and fuck with their peace is the same hate that calls for the annihilation of queer peoples all over the world. Just because we think we are safe in Palm Springs, doesn’t mean that the fight isn’t yours. They hate you just as much as they hate them. It matters so pay attention. Their fight (even here in the US) is your fight.
PSX14 Palm Springs I love you. Happy Homos and our LGBTQIA community- I see you and love you. May your peace never be disturbed like those living in Israel, the innocent lives of those in the Gaza Strip, and those innocent lives of those Ukraine. The hate they face also hates you and me. I want to remind you that I love you…. well most of you. 🙂
PSX15 Yup, I love you.
PSx16 Boo to the rise in antisemitism in our country and boo the rise in Muslim hate in our country. Hate is disgusting. My our goal always be to live in peace and left in peace. I hope one day that we are all allowed to exist safely in a place where we can love who we want to love, safely be any gender, be any shade of skin color, and practice any religion (if we so choose). That remains my hope.
