I probably should lead off with an apology to the two people I was hanging out with last Saturday at one of our local watering holes, and a few other people out on the patio. I hope I didn’t scare or startle you when I started screaming obscenities at the creep staring at me at the next table. Said creep was that pos harasser Ian, aka my DAP bully. I was completely caught off guard when I saw him staring at me from such close range and my fight or flight just kicked in. That’s what happens when someone subjects you to so much trauma.
Let me explain (again), he stalked me before I even arrived in PS and tried to plan my demise before I even arrived. Yup, that was before I met any of those bitches except that very unhelpful supervisor. I met her incompetent ass during the interview process. Every chance Ian had since then he’s demonstrated he was my enemy and not to be trusted. Funny thing is I was so in love with this place that I never responded inappropriately to him and it became too much so I complained to HR. (That was still an appropriate response and boy, oh boy… did that turn out to be its own trauma.)
After he was fired, the word in these gay streets is that he harassed DAP so much online that they had to file a cease-and-desist order. Then he and his bitch friend catfished me on a hook up app and gained access to my home. Hacked my shit and whipped literal shit with their hand on my bedspread. Granted I had a moment of stupidity, but that’s because I thought I had cancer (I don’t), and it was my birthday “Fuck it” moment.
Then he followed that with harassing text messages from one of those fake numbers. Then he posted fake reviews on yelp when I started my very own business. The first business I’ve ever had and he tried to ruin it.
I’m not waiting for the next “Then he…” You ain’t JLo hoe and This is Me now telling you every time I see you, I will tell everyone around us what a pos you and why. I’ll also be prepared to fight for my life if I must, because I think you had the wrong impression of me. Utah Mexicans will defend themselves if we have to and he gives me no indication that I wouldn’t have to.
All that and I haven’t even discussed what I heard he’s done to other people in our community. One person (while in sobriety) had this pos blow meth smoke right in his face when he knew exactly how hard addiction is to overcome and after this person turned it down. That’s so rude, but that’s who this bitch is, a rude bitch.
And why the fuck are you coming to sit at the table next to me at a bar? Either you were waiting for some opportunity to take your next strike at me or you didn’t see me. I think you’re calculated so I don’t believe the latter. And I use the word “waiting” cause that’s the character you have, you’re a predator and wait until people are helpless, vulnerable, or appear weak and can’t fuck you up.
I’d recently posted a month or so ago that I wanted to turn down my own dislike or hate of some rude people in my past because I wanted to devote my time to fostering love. It’s hard for me to switch back and forth and we are going to need the love over the next four years. I don’t want to be a hateful bitter bitchface, but after running into him I realized that the hate for him is cellular. He gives me a trauma response and my body is ready to fight him and defend myself if I have to; because all he has ever done was try to destroy me. (Well fuck you Ian.) You get that same person you seen last weekend every time you run into me and get so close to my person, so just sit somewhere else the bar. It’s a small community and I’m bound to see you-just stay far away from me and my survival instincts won’t kick in. If you were waiting for your opportunity to strike that day… I hope you learned your lesson. And I hope you learned to stop picking on people because you are going to pick on the wrong person. I see you for who you are.
I hate fucking bullies.
Anyhew… now that I got that out of the way…
Hey ya’ll,
I’m typing this all puffy faced from crying. I watched the new JLo, “Unstoppable”. OMFG, I cried a few different times watching and not just cause I’m a super gay Latino and obsessed with J to the Lo Hello.
It was so good, so inspirational and my spirit really needed that fucking hug. I’ll have to cut the rest of this short because I’m about to go watch it again.
So here is my top 3 Jenny from da Block movies.
- Selena and duh my brown skin and its Selena. And over the next four years they are going to try and tell us that our brown skin is wrong. That it’s bad to be brown and I just don’t agree with them. You are beautiful. You are perfect.
- Unstoppable (reasons below)
- Moster in Law (funny af and I also love Jane Fonda and Wanda) is tied with This is Me Now (because its so well done and duh remember -obsessed).
I’m going to be honest because I hope that is what you’d expect from me. If there’s some shitty person out there that is dangerous I want to make you aware of it and you can make up your own mind. I’m just putting him on your radar. And brutal honesty is going to continue and it’s vulnerable, but true content that follows.
First Jennifer is amazing in everything she does. No dang duh she did an amazing job here too. The story about a dick head father that treats one of kids differently than the rest sure hit home for me. I’m sure there are a couple of you out there that can relate (if not your dad another family member). I know I’m not the only one.
Bobby Cannavale did an amazing job of making me see and hate his character. Good job and I hate/love him now. I love Michael Pena and he doesn’t get the praise he deserves in life. Don Cheadle made me cry, JLo made me cry, and Jharrel Jerome made me cry.
My own dad was also not the nicest to my mom throughout their marriage either, so that also hit a button for me. In fact, I don’t know why she stayed with him for so long and I’m happy she’s happily divorced now. It’s not too late for any of us. I hope the both of them find happiness.
I super identified with the Anothy Robles character. That Jharrel Jerome is one bad ass actor. I’m a fan forever now. (Unless he performs for the Inauguration.)
Another reason I loved the movie so much was because it reminds me of my adopted son. He was a wrestler, football and rugby player along with being a little shit. I was his loudest cheerleader at them wrestling matches, and he was even dating a cheerleader at that time. I chuckle now remembering that I was asked to not scream or cheer so loudly because my son couldn’t hear what his coach was telling him to do during the match.
Looking back at that part of my life I realize that it was one of the best times of my life, its too bad I didn’t realize it back then. Everyone would come out and support him and that made me so proud. I wasn’t perfect but I tried and it was definitely remains one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Definitely the biggest heartbreak I’ve experienced too.
As we enter into a new administration, so many of our own past fears we thought we’d already conquered are coming back. Good thing we all have each other to lean on for support.
Timing is everything with dealing with corruption and possibly a dictatorship. If we don’t do something quickly as a country, we might not have one left in 4 years. It’s scary to think the coming regime is partnering with our adversaries who hate America. If that evil serpent shows its head it should be cut off quickly, but how?
It’s scary to think that another Hitler could actually happen in our lifetime. We have the history books now, but for how long? They are going to target education and bury that knowledge. We need to anal-yze (analyze) the Hitler data and plan what to do as a country and a world should it begin again. What could have been done faster the last time?
1/3 of the country voted for him. 1/3 of the country voted for her. 1/3 of the country stayed home. I don’t think that 1/3 of the country will stay home if Hitler is in fact resurrected. When we regain our composure as a country, we will need to put in laws that prevent Oligarchs or other countries from being able to buy an American President.
We are entering into a weird time, and I’ve already had enough bullies to last 3 lifetimes. I’m so not looking forward to this, but we all have each other to look out for. We all matter. Equality and civil rights matter.
Just like this JLo movie inspired me, I hope it inspires you too. I highly recommend it.
America, Together We Are Unstoppable.
The Happy Homo
PS To Carrie Underwood, the great Tracy Chapman sang, “All That You Have Is Your Soul.” How are you going to sing about Jesus and then preform for the devil? Asking Jesus to take the wheel so that you can shimmy and sing for the devil? Ewe. I recently had a Carrie Christmas and loved her HBO special. Last month I’d decided that I was going to make watching that special a Christmas tradition as I thought, “That white gurrrl can sing. You can hear her soul in some of them songs.” But she is baring her soul for the devil. Wong person to give your soul to and I won’t be making that my tradition after all. The Bible said in revelations that many would willingly take the number of the beast. Not me. No thanks. I have deleted all Carrie albums and feel icky for falling for the idea that she was a good person… a good Christian. I don’t fuck with the devil.
PSS OMG I cried so much watching Unstoppable it was awesome. I don’t know if it’s just because my tears were already so near to the surface… my dog keeps wanting to walk towards that rainbow bridge and I’m not ready to say goodbye. But those tears were flowing.
PSSS Ian just stay away from me. I’d rather you not ruin any of our nights in the future. I don’t trust you within 10 feet of me.
PSSSS To mostly er’body else, I love you and you deserve to be here. You deserve love and equality.
PSX5 I’d still like a JLo hair clip in so I can do my client notes in it. 😊
PSX6 If there is someone who is completely terrible that you know I should avoid, I hope you’d tell me too. And I’ll make up my own my from there.
PSX7 My intern is Unstoppable- just like so many of us that have overcome adversity. You, we, US- we matter. Together we are Unstoppable.
PSX8 The mortality rate is still 100% (a line a Utah pastor often said). I’d rather die fighting for equality than die in an internment camp, that’s for damn sure.
PSX9 Is there a way to buy JLo Amazon movies without having Prime? I was trying to cancel my subscription because I don’t dig the rich white boy’s club thing at all. How do I get my JLo fix without giving money to Amazon?
PSX10 Another great movie mention is, “The Creator” and that little girl in it, Madeleine Yuna Voyles acted her fanny right off. They all did great but that little girl sold it. Bravo. And the new Camron Diaz comes out today too. (Jamie Foxx never disappoints. They were fantastic.)
PSX11 Geesh, I should have saved the new Cameron Diaz movie for Monday. Meaning, I will not be tuning in to watch a treasonous rapist criminal be sworn in to the highest office of the land. What will you be watching instead of the inauguration?
PSX12 Cause brown people are some of the hardest working people in America…I want to make a racist joke. 🙂 I forgot to say about the Ruples last week. Well Lexi Love said, “I look Mexican so let me just swifter this mother tuck-iiiin stage with my pussy!” Then she wiped her pussy all over that fuckin stage!!!!! Split … split… split … split yo’ lip if you keep it up! It’s going to be something to witness what these rich white people are going to do without Mexicans they can take advantage of. And I’ll tell you one thing… I am never going back to work in them fields again.
